Shattered

Sigh, i think its time I blog on something that I feel is an issue.

Its a friend of mine, she's been pretty stressed out lately and its not only affecting her grades but her social interactions with other as well as her after school activities. I still remember calling her one day to make sure she was okay. Only to listen to a crying voice, we talked for about 45 minutes. She, just letting go everything in her mind, and I, absorbing all of the sadness that dwelled in her. I tried to help her the best I could. For I too was caught in the exact same situation, I was depressed, my grades were being affected as well as my social interation. I found a way out though by dropping some stuff so I still had time to work and relax.

But lets get back on topic, I want her to be happy she's a very close friend of mine, but what i've been noticing is that she's started to become quieter and quieter and her friends have started to space out from her. I hate to see that, I still give her a smile when I see her in the hallways and a "hey" but I know i'm probbably one of the few who still do. I know the reason why people are spacing from her, or maybe its just my imagination. I don't know but I do know for a fact she's changed. She wrote a blog post today apologizing for some stuff. I don't know how many people read it but I hope thet accept it.



"Friends are like legos, each friend creates a new part, a new part of you"--Yang Zi Ya.

Break!

So looks like I have another goal to complete before I leave high school. That is to breakdance. I know it seems crazy but i think high schoolers can do it, I just need to build up my body muscle first and then work on technique. The trick i have is a windmilll and no please don't go and google windmilling or you'll get a really akward hit about swinging something in order to slap someone. Windmill is basically rolling on your back while your legs shift your body, its called a windmill becuase your legs act like the "blades" of the windmilll as you spin around. Its pretty cool and I think I can get it down by January we'll see though we'll see that's what winter break is for right?

wake me up when october ends.

Sometimes when I fall asleep, I'd like to pretend that some things are just nightmares, and I'll eventually wake up and everything will be ok.

We love you GFAN!

When I heard that Gary Fan was in the hospital my heart dropped. This is the person who has done so much for not only a huge number of people but also me.

This is the guy who

Became my first SHS friend
Help me find the joy in Forensics
Helped me on my feet after tournaments
Give endless amount of support and determination
Helps without wanting anything back
Wears a smile each and every day



WE MISS YOU GARY FAN AND WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU AND WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO!!

"Everybody need some time away..."

Ok, for those of you who do know who I'm going to talk about that's nice, please don't comment(for the sake of keeping it low profile). Well you see it basically went down like this

asked her out afterschool on monday
Its thursday(I know I know, maybe I'm rushing things too quickly) but hey I'll have to learn to be patient, I'm giving her all the time she needs.

but if you've already said no, then please please please just say it to me, a hurt heart is better then a heart that's longing for something that can't be reached. Don't be afriad to hurt me..you'll help me so please if it doesn't work out just tell me.

On a brighter note, This week felt amazing, until today. Ugh I don't know, or is it just me that some days just plain suck? Its not like today i got bad news or anything but I just didn't feel in tune with everything else in the world.

Anyways, I'm still super happy and excited and it's all good. I just guess its just one of those days where i'm just tired.

overall status for today: extremelly happy :D

"When I look at her and the way she is always smiling, it reminds me of something I forgot a long time ago. That in everyday there's something worth being happy about"

It keeps us together.

Well well, looks like I couldn't give up on you blog...always seeming to come back to you.
First off, Carolina was AMAZING. When you realize that half the people on stage are from Southside. Your heart pounds harder. You yell louder. Your body is filled with energy. That is why I love forensics. Not because of the competition in the round, always trying to improve yourself. But because the amazing people on this team and the amazing moments we share.

Second reason I love Forensics, is because I've found someone new. Just when I thought I wouldn't. I refuse to lose her this time, I didn't take chances last year, but I will with her. I want to take this one step further.


WE ARE LEGEND.

Friends..

Well well, looks like you win..

I went to B&N today, and was talking with a group of friends. One asked me "Hey you know you should get back to blogging", My response" No, i really don't have anything to blog about". Him" Well you should blog about how your friends encouraged you to do one more"

And here I am, blogging about it. I hope we can meet in 4 years and act like nothing happened, nothing changed, we were just 4 great friends, I hope we all go somewhere we can just chill and relax and remember.

So let's enjoy our time with each other.

See cya in 4 years.

Cyrus Yang.