Dear 2008,
Its been nice knowing you. Too bad you have to leave so early. Oh well, you've brought some good things to me. Shall we start?
SCHOOL:
I have to say that this year been pretty flat out awesome. You've brought me awesome new friends and allowed me to keep old ones. I definitely have become a more open person and matured immensely during these years. I started joining clubs such as academic team and forensics and have enjoyed them and profited them greatly. I have an amazing group of friends at Southside and I'm glad I came to it. However, even though I came to Southside doesn't necessarily mean I didn't lose anything. I somewhat feel sad because I lost good friends from middle school, but I guess its just time to move on. Also I have lost some time with the family. Ever since High school I'm usually not home till 5 and then off to do homework and on Saturday's I'm off to tournaments. But I'm glad that my parents and my little sister understand and still support me after how much of a burden I've been to them. I also would like to thank my friends who've upheld me since the beginning of this year so thank guys. However, there is more to be done I need to improve myself academically again. I need to push all my grades up to the next level．Ｉ”ｍ ｎｏｔ ｓａｙｉｎｇ ｔｈａｔ ｍｙ ｇｒａｄｅｓ ａｒｅ ｂａｄ ｏｎ ｔｈｅ ｃｏｎｔｒａｒｙ Ｉ ｈａｖｅ ａｌｌ Ａ’ｓ ａｎｄ ｏｎｅ Ｂ ａｎｄ ｔｈａｔ ｉｓ ａ ９２ ｉｎ ＡＰＷＨ． ｂｕｔ ｔｈｅｒｅ ｉｓ ａｌｗａｙｓ ｒｏｏｍ ｆｏｒ ｉｍｐｒｏｖｅｍｅｎｔ． Ｔｈａｔ’ｓ ａ ｒｅｓｏｌｕｔｉｏｎ ｔｏ ｓｔａｒｔ ｂｕｒｎｉｎｇ ｔｈｅ ｆｌａｍｅｓ ｏｆ ｄｅｓｉｒｅ ｏｎｃｅ ａｇａｉｎ．
Ｐｅｒｓｏｎａｌ ｌｉｆｅ：
Ｉ ｃｏｕｌｄ ｎｏｔ ｂｅ ｈａｐｐｉｅｒ ｔｈｅｎ Ｉ”ｍ ｎｏｗ． Ｉhave awesome friends, a sweetheart, and support system to keep my feet from touching the ground. I would like to thank everyone in my life once again. But as usual there is always room for improvement I guess I put to much weight on other people shoulders because I'm to lazy to carry it myself. So that is another resolution to light the flames of self responsibility and lessen the weights of my burden on others. So Mom thanks for pushing me to things I didn't want to do. You understand me better then I do myself. And if it wasn't for you I would not have become the man I am today. Also, my friend who talked to me about vale. thanks for opening my mind and showing me that there is a brighter future even if you don't reach a goal. So Thank you for opening up my mind and seeing the light of the flame. Resolution: To burn away my burdens on others and carry them on myself.
Overview:
Life's been pretty great even though the economy is falling and the war still continuing its been pretty nice. Yet, as natural humans we question the darkness of the new year, we question if everything will be alright. And I say "How do you know the depths of the ocean if you have never left sight of the shore?" The only way to figure out is to go through it with out any hesitation, hey we questioned this year but it wasn't that bad was it? So let us rise our glasses for this final night of the year 2008 and move on through 2009's darkness without hesitation.
So here I stand writing on the final hours of 2008 and I have to say its been a good year. But each year has room for improvement. So I hope you guys will always try to improve yourself, because I will. I want to become a strong person who people can follow without questioning about their own concerns. So to my former self "Cheers! and may the flame burn stronger as the Gale forces that blow against it!"
New years resolutions:
"To light the Fire of Desire once again."
"To burn the burdens on others and carry the ash myself."
"To burn stronger as the Gale winds blow"
"To take my fire and shine it through the darkness."
I HOPE ALL OF YOU HAD A WONDERFUL 2008 YEAR AND A FLAME BRIGHT 2009!!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
I'm the light that guides those who do not see and new years resolution
*This is not a true account but rather what went through my mind and latter on this is a rant*
I asked a kid what he wants for Christmas. He said"I want my dad to come back home.". I said "from a trip?". He said "yeah". I asked "where?". He said "Iraq". Then time stopped at the moment. I looked him in the eyes and a tear rolled down my face. I said "Everything will be alright kid" and shook his hair. He smiled at me. I asked "Is that all?" He replied "yes.".
This war has gone to long and has torn family members apart. But to give hope to a kid to keep going forward is the greatest gift you can give. They say that Christmas is the season for giving and to give kids hope,dreams,strength and courage that is the true gifts you can give. But as the kid left I thought that my gift was unreasonable I had more then just promised the kid to hope but I have promised him God's greatest gift of all LIFE. How can I promise a kid the life of his father? I can't but to let the kid hope and dream and move forward that is the gift I have given him. Now I sit here typing my thoughts and I think that Life is the greatest gift God has given. You only have one chance and one life and you better make the best of it. So for all of you who sit at home and sigh about how life isn't going your way. Think about how that you are still alive and healthy and not in someone's shoes like that kid. Pray to God that you are fortunate with what you have and that God has determined that it is not your time to leave. Be happy that you still hold God's greatest gift of LIFE. While, that kid walks away I know I removed all fear,all doubts from his mind and that he is at peace.
I almost cried when I heard this: "Today 3 American Troops died on this Christmas Eve let's honor them in Silence" That is Three kids whose gifts I failed to give and three families whose Christmas has become Hell. When will this stop?
AP 4,218 American Soldiers have died since the beggining of this war. 4,218 kids whose Gifts they did not get. 4,218 families whose Christmas turned into Hell.
We cannot pretend that there are families that are suffering mental,economically and physically. We cannot pretned that those 4,218 soldiers are only snowman or this is a dream. WE CANNOT pretend that 4218 KIDS lost their brother or father. WHEN WILL THIS END!? Do you see the Fault of your mistake Bush??? Do you??? NO because you have taken God's most precious gift from 4218 people their Gift to Life. Yes they did volunteer, yes they were willing to give up their lives for their country! But you promised that this would end! Look at where we are now! More then 4 Years have passed! You gave us NOTHING BUT FEAR AND PAIN!
That is My New Years Resolve, to Eliminate Pain and fear. I will be the one to lift those who cannot stand. Carry those who cannot carry themselves. Guide those who cannot see. and Lead those who cannot lead themselves.
I am the Light that shall guide my friends and family out of the darkness and anyone else who neds it.
I asked a kid what he wants for Christmas. He said"I want my dad to come back home.". I said "from a trip?". He said "yeah". I asked "where?". He said "Iraq". Then time stopped at the moment. I looked him in the eyes and a tear rolled down my face. I said "Everything will be alright kid" and shook his hair. He smiled at me. I asked "Is that all?" He replied "yes.".
This war has gone to long and has torn family members apart. But to give hope to a kid to keep going forward is the greatest gift you can give. They say that Christmas is the season for giving and to give kids hope,dreams,strength and courage that is the true gifts you can give. But as the kid left I thought that my gift was unreasonable I had more then just promised the kid to hope but I have promised him God's greatest gift of all LIFE. How can I promise a kid the life of his father? I can't but to let the kid hope and dream and move forward that is the gift I have given him. Now I sit here typing my thoughts and I think that Life is the greatest gift God has given. You only have one chance and one life and you better make the best of it. So for all of you who sit at home and sigh about how life isn't going your way. Think about how that you are still alive and healthy and not in someone's shoes like that kid. Pray to God that you are fortunate with what you have and that God has determined that it is not your time to leave. Be happy that you still hold God's greatest gift of LIFE. While, that kid walks away I know I removed all fear,all doubts from his mind and that he is at peace.
I almost cried when I heard this: "Today 3 American Troops died on this Christmas Eve let's honor them in Silence" That is Three kids whose gifts I failed to give and three families whose Christmas has become Hell. When will this stop?
AP 4,218 American Soldiers have died since the beggining of this war. 4,218 kids whose Gifts they did not get. 4,218 families whose Christmas turned into Hell.
We cannot pretend that there are families that are suffering mental,economically and physically. We cannot pretned that those 4,218 soldiers are only snowman or this is a dream. WE CANNOT pretend that 4218 KIDS lost their brother or father. WHEN WILL THIS END!? Do you see the Fault of your mistake Bush??? Do you??? NO because you have taken God's most precious gift from 4218 people their Gift to Life. Yes they did volunteer, yes they were willing to give up their lives for their country! But you promised that this would end! Look at where we are now! More then 4 Years have passed! You gave us NOTHING BUT FEAR AND PAIN!
That is My New Years Resolve, to Eliminate Pain and fear. I will be the one to lift those who cannot stand. Carry those who cannot carry themselves. Guide those who cannot see. and Lead those who cannot lead themselves.
I am the Light that shall guide my friends and family out of the darkness and anyone else who neds it.
Monday, December 22, 2008
To be thankful
Good bye 2008,hello 2009
Dear 2008,
You have brought both good things as well as bad. So I guess this will be a overview of the year. Shall we start?
Good things, I have found love, found great friends, and a great reason to life. I have been happy this year with all the success and new experiences 2008 has been a learning,maturing experience. So basically I'm here to write every aspect on human happiness. There is no doubt that this year for me personally. But with each new year, a man must evolve or he won't make it to see the next. So even ithough Im writting about a good year, I am also writing my new years resolution. 1) Be generally a happier person,2) To expand and push my limits, 3)To find my weakness and overcome it,4) to be at peace with the world and myself. That is my resolve. To become a better person,to mature,to grow,to experience,to learn.
Bad things
US economy is falling and there is no stop to it. I fear that my future is unclear. Not only that but the so called "war on terrorism"is an epic fail, Bush has failed his 2nd term in so called protecting "the American dream". This year has seen some frightening moments, terrorist attacks, constant falling of the stock market worldwide, but yet the Christmas spirit prevails-people love each other and care for others that's what makes Christmas so special as well as the new year. But this year has also been personally failure, I haven't found my place in this world, I haven't achieved my life goal or success. What have I achieved? I have achieved love,friendship,happiness,maturity,responsibility,patience,hard working,persistence, and insight. These are the greatest gifts of humanity. That is what I've achieved.
I have achieved a lot this year of 2008, and I have a lot to improve. But this week its time to focus on the real spirit of the Christmas and the New Year. Its time to give,love,think,share and improve.
My resolve
"A new year, a new slate, a new goal, A new way to Improve"
Dear 2008,
You have brought both good things as well as bad. So I guess this will be a overview of the year. Shall we start?
Good things, I have found love, found great friends, and a great reason to life. I have been happy this year with all the success and new experiences 2008 has been a learning,maturing experience. So basically I'm here to write every aspect on human happiness. There is no doubt that this year for me personally. But with each new year, a man must evolve or he won't make it to see the next. So even ithough Im writting about a good year, I am also writing my new years resolution. 1) Be generally a happier person,2) To expand and push my limits, 3)To find my weakness and overcome it,4) to be at peace with the world and myself. That is my resolve. To become a better person,to mature,to grow,to experience,to learn.
Bad things
US economy is falling and there is no stop to it. I fear that my future is unclear. Not only that but the so called "war on terrorism"is an epic fail, Bush has failed his 2nd term in so called protecting "the American dream". This year has seen some frightening moments, terrorist attacks, constant falling of the stock market worldwide, but yet the Christmas spirit prevails-people love each other and care for others that's what makes Christmas so special as well as the new year. But this year has also been personally failure, I haven't found my place in this world, I haven't achieved my life goal or success. What have I achieved? I have achieved love,friendship,happiness,maturity,responsibility,patience,hard working,persistence, and insight. These are the greatest gifts of humanity. That is what I've achieved.
I have achieved a lot this year of 2008, and I have a lot to improve. But this week its time to focus on the real spirit of the Christmas and the New Year. Its time to give,love,think,share and improve.
My resolve
"A new year, a new slate, a new goal, A new way to Improve"
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Light in the Dark
dear, you know who.
I am terribly sorry to stay this anonymous with you. However, I am being watched over. But no matter I would like to say Congrats.
December 13, 2008
Happiest day of my life. I was content with my former life. But something was missing. Something greatly was missing. I tried to search for it...I tried so hard to look for something that could fill the hole. But nothing seemed to work. In 8th grade I though I had found the solution, but I was wrong. Nothing happened that hole didn't clog up that hole just got bigger and deeper. I felt it also, I couldn't enjoy Life like I was able to. Something had been taken from me and a Black pit of darkness left in its place.
Then you came... little did I know that you would be the one. The one to get me out of the dark into the light. You came to me as a friend but one thing led to another. Finnaly I fet what i was missing Happiness finnaly after all these years what true happiness is. My soul searched desperatly to find and I finnaly found it in your eyes, your hopes, your dreams. I've learned to make my own. I thought I was losing life,losing hope and God told me to be strong and you will be rewarded. I listened to him and became strong and kept on fighting. Then you came and I finnaly was able to close my eyes..........and watch the moon differently tonight.
You have been my light in the time of Darkness.
Love, Cyrus yang
I am terribly sorry to stay this anonymous with you. However, I am being watched over. But no matter I would like to say Congrats.
December 13, 2008
Happiest day of my life. I was content with my former life. But something was missing. Something greatly was missing. I tried to search for it...I tried so hard to look for something that could fill the hole. But nothing seemed to work. In 8th grade I though I had found the solution, but I was wrong. Nothing happened that hole didn't clog up that hole just got bigger and deeper. I felt it also, I couldn't enjoy Life like I was able to. Something had been taken from me and a Black pit of darkness left in its place.
Then you came... little did I know that you would be the one. The one to get me out of the dark into the light. You came to me as a friend but one thing led to another. Finnaly I fet what i was missing Happiness finnaly after all these years what true happiness is. My soul searched desperatly to find and I finnaly found it in your eyes, your hopes, your dreams. I've learned to make my own. I thought I was losing life,losing hope and God told me to be strong and you will be rewarded. I listened to him and became strong and kept on fighting. Then you came and I finnaly was able to close my eyes..........and watch the moon differently tonight.
You have been my light in the time of Darkness.
Love, Cyrus yang
Friday, December 5, 2008
YOU MADE ME WAIT FOR WHAT!(yes this is a rant)
WARNING rant coming ahead.
So anyways during this weekend its been pretty boring since most of my close friends have gone to YIG and won't be back until Saturday aafternoon. So everyday carpool is pretty much boring and yes..silent. So I will be extremely happy when the YIG people come home and things go back to normal.
However, I did not write this blog to talk about YIG. It so happens that on Thursday the 4th of December year 2008. I receive a phone call at 7:50 and it just happens to be the indian kid.
"hello?"-me
"Yeah Cyrus its me __ we might be late going to your house today fine with you?"Indian
"um.....how long?"-me
"10 minutes"- Indian
Seeing that there was no harm in this i said
"yeah that's fine but why?"
"Oh..you don't need to know that."-Indian
Hangs up the phone and the end of the conversation. So I decide to wait for 10 minutes and he should arrive soon. 15 minutes latter hm.......no problem right? 20 minutes ok this is getting ridiculous. I look at the time and its what!? 8:15 25minutes have passed since he called. I wait at 8:20 I get picked up and the Indian kid's mom apologizes and I say its fine thinking that it was just some errand. Luckily our third person was sick and the other(very good friend of mine) was on YIG. So we start for the highway by that time its 8:23 and I say to myself there is no way we can make it. Guess what? I end up 5 minutes late to French 1 and decide to take a seat.
Latter that day the indian kid comes up to me and says why we were so late.
He says for Swiming pants. WAIT what?! I must have slept very little yesterday. Did you just say Pants? So what you made me late and yourself for a pair of pants!!!!
Do you see where I'm going with this? Then he says that it was his mom who was concerned so they drove to spartanburg and came back. FOR PANTS! I mean seriously if it had been like a bill you have to pay or your power gets cut off I can understand BUT FOR SOME $20 PIECE OF CLOTHING THAT IS USED FOR SPORTS TO CAUSE ME TO BE LATE IS,PARDON THE EXPRESSIONG BUT,STUPID and here is the worst part HE DIDN'T FIND THEM! My God kid do you know what your first priorties are? Pants are the least of your concern. Oh what's this you blame it on your mom. Yeah just like the time you looked like you were screaming at your pants. Come on kid think before you act. So I am so glad we had two missing people today or else one of my very good friends would be, pardon the expression once again, PISSED. Jeez.. kid and oh wait what that's right you told me at 9 o'clock yesterday at night that you had a orthodonist appointment tomorrow at 4. You could have looked for your pants then. Oh wait you go and make an excuse and say that the pool closes at 9 that is a bunch of, I apologize in advance for my vulgar language, BULLSHIT. Kid seriously learn how to use your brain before you act. I wouldn't be the only one yelling my face off on this too. My good friend would have wrote a blog about this as well. Ok I understand that you are not the brightest kid but use some common sense! Seriously good GOD I see why my friend ranted about you. Learn to organize what's important first and then think about the rest!
For all of you who read this blog to the end. Thank you...I just had to release my anger without physically hurting the kid. So kid if you someday by a miracle come and read this blog, remember the old saying "LOOK BEFORE YOU LEAP! THINK BEFORE YOU ACT!"
So anyways during this weekend its been pretty boring since most of my close friends have gone to YIG and won't be back until Saturday aafternoon. So everyday carpool is pretty much boring and yes..silent. So I will be extremely happy when the YIG people come home and things go back to normal.
However, I did not write this blog to talk about YIG. It so happens that on Thursday the 4th of December year 2008. I receive a phone call at 7:50 and it just happens to be the indian kid.
"hello?"-me
"Yeah Cyrus its me __ we might be late going to your house today fine with you?"Indian
"um.....how long?"-me
"10 minutes"- Indian
Seeing that there was no harm in this i said
"yeah that's fine but why?"
"Oh..you don't need to know that."-Indian
Hangs up the phone and the end of the conversation. So I decide to wait for 10 minutes and he should arrive soon. 15 minutes latter hm.......no problem right? 20 minutes ok this is getting ridiculous. I look at the time and its what!? 8:15 25minutes have passed since he called. I wait at 8:20 I get picked up and the Indian kid's mom apologizes and I say its fine thinking that it was just some errand. Luckily our third person was sick and the other(very good friend of mine) was on YIG. So we start for the highway by that time its 8:23 and I say to myself there is no way we can make it. Guess what? I end up 5 minutes late to French 1 and decide to take a seat.
Latter that day the indian kid comes up to me and says why we were so late.
He says for Swiming pants. WAIT what?! I must have slept very little yesterday. Did you just say Pants? So what you made me late and yourself for a pair of pants!!!!
Do you see where I'm going with this? Then he says that it was his mom who was concerned so they drove to spartanburg and came back. FOR PANTS! I mean seriously if it had been like a bill you have to pay or your power gets cut off I can understand BUT FOR SOME $20 PIECE OF CLOTHING THAT IS USED FOR SPORTS TO CAUSE ME TO BE LATE IS,PARDON THE EXPRESSIONG BUT,STUPID and here is the worst part HE DIDN'T FIND THEM! My God kid do you know what your first priorties are? Pants are the least of your concern. Oh what's this you blame it on your mom. Yeah just like the time you looked like you were screaming at your pants. Come on kid think before you act. So I am so glad we had two missing people today or else one of my very good friends would be, pardon the expression once again, PISSED. Jeez.. kid and oh wait what that's right you told me at 9 o'clock yesterday at night that you had a orthodonist appointment tomorrow at 4. You could have looked for your pants then. Oh wait you go and make an excuse and say that the pool closes at 9 that is a bunch of, I apologize in advance for my vulgar language, BULLSHIT. Kid seriously learn how to use your brain before you act. I wouldn't be the only one yelling my face off on this too. My good friend would have wrote a blog about this as well. Ok I understand that you are not the brightest kid but use some common sense! Seriously good GOD I see why my friend ranted about you. Learn to organize what's important first and then think about the rest!
For all of you who read this blog to the end. Thank you...I just had to release my anger without physically hurting the kid. So kid if you someday by a miracle come and read this blog, remember the old saying "LOOK BEFORE YOU LEAP! THINK BEFORE YOU ACT!"
Monday, December 1, 2008
Happiness is really in the small things isn't it?
Yeah I know we're in high school and there is a lot of pressure going on and that its like 4 hours of homework a night and going to bed at like 3 only to wake up at like 4 and realize that you forgot to research stuff for a project or read a chapter in your book. But let's face it isn't the small things make us happy.
How many of you got a smile today? If you count I bet a lot? But I bet you didn't think it very much did ya? Ok another question....how many of you were happy right after that smile? Did it just make your day? It defintly makes my days. Do you know that if you laugh one time a day it can actually increase your health? You might not believe it but hey when you laugh don't you feel alot better? Let's face it we can't help but catch this deadly disease......HAPPINESS.
But happiness can be such simple things such as a hello or how are you or a smile and a wave. People who need such things as money and riches don't know true happiness and its true. They are only concerned with what they want. To be happy you just have to make someone else happy. And guess what? It doesn't take much to make a person happy. Just say hello or how are you doing? Start a little bit of talk make the person smile and laugh. I will bet you that you will be happy as well!
So what are you waiting for? Happiness is just as easy as saying hello! And I promise you'll find yourself smiling too :)
How many of you got a smile today? If you count I bet a lot? But I bet you didn't think it very much did ya? Ok another question....how many of you were happy right after that smile? Did it just make your day? It defintly makes my days. Do you know that if you laugh one time a day it can actually increase your health? You might not believe it but hey when you laugh don't you feel alot better? Let's face it we can't help but catch this deadly disease......HAPPINESS.
But happiness can be such simple things such as a hello or how are you or a smile and a wave. People who need such things as money and riches don't know true happiness and its true. They are only concerned with what they want. To be happy you just have to make someone else happy. And guess what? It doesn't take much to make a person happy. Just say hello or how are you doing? Start a little bit of talk make the person smile and laugh. I will bet you that you will be happy as well!
So what are you waiting for? Happiness is just as easy as saying hello! And I promise you'll find yourself smiling too :)
Monday, November 24, 2008
Solution of ..............
So this weekend I was at Brookwood tournament which was pretty fun since it was academic team and the car ride there was nothing but laughs. But when we got there we had a new mind setting we knew we were going to get owned but at least we should gain some points. So 1st round not bad started to lose a little in the begnining and made a huge comeback against south foryr and won 180 to 85. Pretty happy since we thought we were all going to get owned at this tournament but not bad. Off to round two..lost a little bit actually a lot 130 to 75 sigh we knew we were goin to lose but when a older team mate tells you, you tried your best but, you know you didn't.
You know the answers to those question but didn't buzz in or was too slow, or you mess up a bonus because your mind blanks off and your like "no i knew that dang it". This isn't playing at your best. Sure I know that this is one of the hardest tournaments we've had so far and the older players keep on resuring us that we did good for freshman year but no one on my team agress. We know we didn't try our best we know we should've gotten more question and bonuses. To play our best we need to get every tossup we know and every bonus, even if we don't win that round we know we did good since we answered what we know and it is time to work on what we dont. Like my dad told me "You have to have a base before you can build a building".
So that's our resolution to answer what we know and work on what we don't. However, we have a problem unfortuantly we are the only 3 members of the freshman class who actually are dedicated to this and our fourth member is busy and comes to tournaments ocassionly I don't blame him. But to have a player like that with 2 majors and 3ish minors could harm the team greatly. So Tim offered a new plan to split the majors and minors among the three of us, putting more weight on our shoulders. *sigh* now I really need to have a strong base before holding up to all these things. Its not that I don't like it when teammates say you did your best.........its that pain inside saying no you didn't. So my resolution is to improve myself then I can play my best.
Do you ever fear that sometimes you are not good enough? and when you try to become better its still not good enough? I say
"To compete with others you first must compete with yourself."
You know the answers to those question but didn't buzz in or was too slow, or you mess up a bonus because your mind blanks off and your like "no i knew that dang it". This isn't playing at your best. Sure I know that this is one of the hardest tournaments we've had so far and the older players keep on resuring us that we did good for freshman year but no one on my team agress. We know we didn't try our best we know we should've gotten more question and bonuses. To play our best we need to get every tossup we know and every bonus, even if we don't win that round we know we did good since we answered what we know and it is time to work on what we dont. Like my dad told me "You have to have a base before you can build a building".
So that's our resolution to answer what we know and work on what we don't. However, we have a problem unfortuantly we are the only 3 members of the freshman class who actually are dedicated to this and our fourth member is busy and comes to tournaments ocassionly I don't blame him. But to have a player like that with 2 majors and 3ish minors could harm the team greatly. So Tim offered a new plan to split the majors and minors among the three of us, putting more weight on our shoulders. *sigh* now I really need to have a strong base before holding up to all these things. Its not that I don't like it when teammates say you did your best.........its that pain inside saying no you didn't. So my resolution is to improve myself then I can play my best.
Do you ever fear that sometimes you are not good enough? and when you try to become better its still not good enough? I say
"To compete with others you first must compete with yourself."
Thursday, November 20, 2008
A word of Thanks
It took me a long time too realize this but I have been protected by a guardian angel along since I came to Southside. I might not have noticed it at first but what this person has said and done really has helped me. And I would like to take this blog to thank her for everything she's done for me so far and keeping me with my head high and looking toward the future.
I didn't know it that God would send me an angel in my own carpool. So it was just sheer coincendence...no it wasn't. God sent her to me to guide me through high school to keep me up on my feet and to generally be happy. With such words as "How was your day?" or such things as "Don't worry you'll do great." just the words that morally support you through life. I don't know how lucky I am to have such a person in my life someone who I can count on to let all probelms go, and she understands everyword and gives her ideas and comments. She is always there to also give a little crticism and says what I need to avoid, she generally just make my day feel so much better and afterwards make sure I'm ok. I really don't know how lucky I am to have her in my life.
One example of this is the time we were going home from Bob Jones I was so sure I should've placed however I didn't and she was the first one to know my change. She asked what's wrong and I just let everything out and she says don't worry about it and turns around in the car seat. Or the time going back from academic team saying "you had fun right" and I couldn't help but say yes with a sense of defeat inside and she automatically caught it and said "they are supposed to be fun so cheer up".
So I guess I am going to wrap this up. She generally has made me a happier person and I can't help but smile when she's smiling. But, I really never had a chance to thank her for all she's done, even though the year is not over she has kept me going. So if you're reading this.....I would like to say......Thank You.
I didn't know it that God would send me an angel in my own carpool. So it was just sheer coincendence...no it wasn't. God sent her to me to guide me through high school to keep me up on my feet and to generally be happy. With such words as "How was your day?" or such things as "Don't worry you'll do great." just the words that morally support you through life. I don't know how lucky I am to have such a person in my life someone who I can count on to let all probelms go, and she understands everyword and gives her ideas and comments. She is always there to also give a little crticism and says what I need to avoid, she generally just make my day feel so much better and afterwards make sure I'm ok. I really don't know how lucky I am to have her in my life.
One example of this is the time we were going home from Bob Jones I was so sure I should've placed however I didn't and she was the first one to know my change. She asked what's wrong and I just let everything out and she says don't worry about it and turns around in the car seat. Or the time going back from academic team saying "you had fun right" and I couldn't help but say yes with a sense of defeat inside and she automatically caught it and said "they are supposed to be fun so cheer up".
So I guess I am going to wrap this up. She generally has made me a happier person and I can't help but smile when she's smiling. But, I really never had a chance to thank her for all she's done, even though the year is not over she has kept me going. So if you're reading this.....I would like to say......Thank You.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Academic team fun!
Well I really haven't written anything for a long time and today I had not homework so I decided why not. Anyways let me just fill you in blog. So last saturday I got 6th in Lincoln-Douglas debate and I felt really proud because I really worked hard to get there; however, if I want to get past 6th I'll need to work harder then ever before. So this week I decided to relax on my debate and start studying for my a-team. So far its been pretty good I have most of the Roman,Greek,Norse,Hindu,Chinesse mythology down. Still need to work on the funky names of the Inca/aztec deitess and need to prush up on Babylonian(I know right I was like what >.*Sigh* only 3 more days to go
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
those who work hard,play hard, win big
So Life's been pretty quick these past couple of weeks. My days are usually spent 10 hours at school. 9 hours of sleeping. 3 hours of homework. 1 hour of extra activities. 15 minutes of free time. 15 on facebook/aim. And 30 on this blog.
Boring right?
WRONG. OK maybe I'll agree it is a little boring. So anyways most of my days are usually coming home and starting to read. These past few days have been APWH extravaganza and I usually spend a good hour and a half doing it. The other hour and half is usually a mix of bio/phis/alg/eng/french. But some days I just want to give up. These couple of days I've been stressed out to the max. Forensics everyday due to the fact that we are not "competitive" enough,just great more stress. Anyways,sometimes I just want to quit reading AP but something motivates me to continue on. I don't know maybe its just sheer conscious or maybe knowing if I don't I will end up faliing the class. So I have decided to keep on going. But another incident today hit me harder then just study for the next exam. Today in carpool two very good friends of mine decided to duke it out and while I was pretending to not listen I could not help that my chinesse friend made a very good statement on life. Now my Indian friend still hasn't grown up to see the real world just yet he is still in that "Pan-gu coming out of the egg stage." But now I wonder, what will I do after high school? Easy go to college but then you have to get a job and support a family and once you know it one thing comes right after another. But the big question is what do I do now to ensure I get there? Wait do I even want to get there? YES I want to get there. So here I am every week on sunday studying the SAT in hopes of making it to a good college. No let me rephrase I have to WORK to get into a good college. My Indian friend if you are out there right now reading this please understand what the other person has said and why I might have agreed with you only to conceal my own worries. So why try so hard? Why not just quit? BECAUSE QUITTERS ARE LOSERS. I'm not going to quit even if my mind says yes I will not. I am going to keep on going forward,keep on pushing in hope for a better me and a better life.
Boring right?
WRONG. OK maybe I'll agree it is a little boring. So anyways most of my days are usually coming home and starting to read. These past few days have been APWH extravaganza and I usually spend a good hour and a half doing it. The other hour and half is usually a mix of bio/phis/alg/eng/french. But some days I just want to give up. These couple of days I've been stressed out to the max. Forensics everyday due to the fact that we are not "competitive" enough,just great more stress. Anyways,sometimes I just want to quit reading AP but something motivates me to continue on. I don't know maybe its just sheer conscious or maybe knowing if I don't I will end up faliing the class. So I have decided to keep on going. But another incident today hit me harder then just study for the next exam. Today in carpool two very good friends of mine decided to duke it out and while I was pretending to not listen I could not help that my chinesse friend made a very good statement on life. Now my Indian friend still hasn't grown up to see the real world just yet he is still in that "Pan-gu coming out of the egg stage." But now I wonder, what will I do after high school? Easy go to college but then you have to get a job and support a family and once you know it one thing comes right after another. But the big question is what do I do now to ensure I get there? Wait do I even want to get there? YES I want to get there. So here I am every week on sunday studying the SAT in hopes of making it to a good college. No let me rephrase I have to WORK to get into a good college. My Indian friend if you are out there right now reading this please understand what the other person has said and why I might have agreed with you only to conceal my own worries. So why try so hard? Why not just quit? BECAUSE QUITTERS ARE LOSERS. I'm not going to quit even if my mind says yes I will not. I am going to keep on going forward,keep on pushing in hope for a better me and a better life.
"There is no failure in not doing it right, there is only failure when quitting"
So I will not quit, I will press forward. Just like the southside high school motto is
"Those who work hard,play hard, win big "
So if you excuse me I think there is some studying I have to do.......
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Through a new perspective.
So let's see..put on some new glasses today. Yeah and then all of the sudden BAM! everything has shrank about two feet and everything has become clearer.
Then I take it off and all of the sudden the world becomes blurry,unclear and to some extent foreign. It was like another different world. Then I realized a miracle. Life is just like putting on some new glasses, first lets understand why I say this.
When in middle school back in Michigan I was a horrible student, I skipped class, I forgot to pay my lunch money, I forgot to bring back a book and then lost it, I made B's and C's I was failing my pre-algebra class. Then we moved to South Carolina, and everything changed. I came here for half of the 6th grade and I thought my grades didn't matter that grades don't tell who I am. Damn, was I wrong. 7th grade was a revelation of knowledge and I understood that only my grades could tell what kind of student I was.It was like "putting on glasses" and seeing a new world. 8th grade was the revelation of hard work again another "put on your glasses moment" and BAM another world. If we never moved to South Carolina to start with a new slate, I definitely wouldn't be the student or person I am today.
I was lost in a fog, a world full of uncertainty and fear. Until I changed my perspective and I found that the world was crystal clear and I know where I want to go. Adopted a new mode of thinking.
I've put on glasses and I can see so clearly now.
"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attidude"
Then I take it off and all of the sudden the world becomes blurry,unclear and to some extent foreign. It was like another different world. Then I realized a miracle. Life is just like putting on some new glasses, first lets understand why I say this.
When in middle school back in Michigan I was a horrible student, I skipped class, I forgot to pay my lunch money, I forgot to bring back a book and then lost it, I made B's and C's I was failing my pre-algebra class. Then we moved to South Carolina, and everything changed. I came here for half of the 6th grade and I thought my grades didn't matter that grades don't tell who I am. Damn, was I wrong. 7th grade was a revelation of knowledge and I understood that only my grades could tell what kind of student I was.It was like "putting on glasses" and seeing a new world. 8th grade was the revelation of hard work again another "put on your glasses moment" and BAM another world. If we never moved to South Carolina to start with a new slate, I definitely wouldn't be the student or person I am today.
I was lost in a fog, a world full of uncertainty and fear. Until I changed my perspective and I found that the world was crystal clear and I know where I want to go. Adopted a new mode of thinking.
I've put on glasses and I can see so clearly now.
"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attidude"
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Cure for sadness,anger,depression and anything else that tears a soul.
I've realized that I am unusually sad or angry or depressed. So why?
Dangit, I don't know maybe its just because of the sheer pressure of high school and then going home doing homework. Or those every sunday's studying SAT because I know my future is going to depend on it. But, sometimes I don't even have a reason for my sadness
Yeah I have friends who are always happy and bright, but for some odd reason it won't rub off on me. I think I just take things too personnaly and put way too much pressure on myself.
But I have found a cure.
RUNNING
I decided today after SAT practice and getting a 550 on english (bad.....) that I should release my anger with running.Well first of all I was kind of against the idea of it. Then I decided I should force myself into doing it. So get on my new shoes changed clothes and went outside and started to run. And I have to say I have never felt better in my life during my run. Just something about releasing that sadness and anger into stomping on the ground and moving forward just relaxes me. After running I took a hot shower and what do you know? I feel excelllent so why not do it every day.
That's what I'm going to do. At least three days a week I'm going to run. Just for the feeling of being relaxed and starting a new. If this helps my attidude then I have every reason to run.
"A strong body is necessary for a strong mind"
So that's my resolve I'm going to run. Run for the releasing stress. Run for the fun of it. Run for the future. And run to become a new me.
-€yru$ yang
Dangit, I don't know maybe its just because of the sheer pressure of high school and then going home doing homework. Or those every sunday's studying SAT because I know my future is going to depend on it. But, sometimes I don't even have a reason for my sadness
Yeah I have friends who are always happy and bright, but for some odd reason it won't rub off on me. I think I just take things too personnaly and put way too much pressure on myself.
But I have found a cure.
RUNNING
I decided today after SAT practice and getting a 550 on english (bad.....) that I should release my anger with running.Well first of all I was kind of against the idea of it. Then I decided I should force myself into doing it. So get on my new shoes changed clothes and went outside and started to run. And I have to say I have never felt better in my life during my run. Just something about releasing that sadness and anger into stomping on the ground and moving forward just relaxes me. After running I took a hot shower and what do you know? I feel excelllent so why not do it every day.
That's what I'm going to do. At least three days a week I'm going to run. Just for the feeling of being relaxed and starting a new. If this helps my attidude then I have every reason to run.
"A strong body is necessary for a strong mind"
So that's my resolve I'm going to run. Run for the releasing stress. Run for the fun of it. Run for the future. And run to become a new me.
-€yru$ yang
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Cyrus's crazy wacky mind unleashed(yes once again)
Yeah, so this past weekend was fun. Our team didn't do half bad but hey first tourney.
So why do I feel so down??
Hm.....Let's look at this in a family perspective.
Mom- had a severe sickness for 3 years and still graduated at 16. Had brains and didn't like to work, loves to argue.
Dad- Physical,logical form of a tiger, heart of gold. Dad wasn't the brightest but was a hard worker. Was bottom two in physics in high school/college by graduation time top 30 out of 300 some students. Solved things for himself with no one's help.
Hm......
So is that why? Is it because that I went in with high hopes only to be destroyed.
Well, its first tourney. So what!! Next time just try harder. Push yourself to the limits.(now I'm sounding like my dad........)
I've learned that I shouldn't take things seriously that is if I just want to have fun. If I want to win I have to play to win, push myself to the very limit of my knowledge and if it is not enough expand it.
"When you think about winning think that you can beat everyone, when you are studying and planning to beat everyone think that everyone is the most superior person in the world."
that's what I have to do, not the lack of confidence ,but to treat my enemy as a far superior person then I am. Until I can overwhelm him.
My dad once challenged me to beat him in every aspect. But he is the type of man who if you fall he just keeps going. Until you reach up to him by yourself, sure he helps along the way but if I really want to beat him I must always be one step ahead of him and I myself have to keep going no matter if I trip and fall.
But there is another factor in this. My sister. Ever since I went to high school I felt I had to set a bar for my sister. A bar that says come and try and surpass this in every way and to rise above it. Sure my parents help her, she gets better help then I got when I was 8. My parents know how to work with her while they were just completely frustrated with teaching me. So she has to have the want to reach that bar. I'm not saying right now but when she is in high school I hope that she can surpass me and I will find ways to surpass her.
At this time if I was 8, and compared to her. I am LIGHT YEARS BEHIND.
So how does this tie back into a-team?? One reason if we ever want to make it to nats or even beat c-team then we have to push ourselves to the highest point possible and have the will to do it.
So how does this go back to your sadness. Because I realized that we had that "we wil we will rock you spirit" but we didn't have that "my opponent is the toughest one I'm going to meet" mind set thus we were completly annihalted, but its going to be different after our loss the whole teams mind set has changed its now "we've lost but we aren't going to lose again"
We have the confidence to win. We just need to act like our opponents are nothing but the best.
American thinking" There is always someone that is going to be better then you." - our thinking(somewhat) at spartanburg
My thinking now" I'M going to be the best"-Our a-team thinking now.
So why do I feel so down??
Hm.....Let's look at this in a family perspective.
Mom- had a severe sickness for 3 years and still graduated at 16. Had brains and didn't like to work, loves to argue.
Dad- Physical,logical form of a tiger, heart of gold. Dad wasn't the brightest but was a hard worker. Was bottom two in physics in high school/college by graduation time top 30 out of 300 some students. Solved things for himself with no one's help.
Hm......
So is that why? Is it because that I went in with high hopes only to be destroyed.
Well, its first tourney. So what!! Next time just try harder. Push yourself to the limits.(now I'm sounding like my dad........)
I've learned that I shouldn't take things seriously that is if I just want to have fun. If I want to win I have to play to win, push myself to the very limit of my knowledge and if it is not enough expand it.
"When you think about winning think that you can beat everyone, when you are studying and planning to beat everyone think that everyone is the most superior person in the world."
that's what I have to do, not the lack of confidence ,but to treat my enemy as a far superior person then I am. Until I can overwhelm him.
My dad once challenged me to beat him in every aspect. But he is the type of man who if you fall he just keeps going. Until you reach up to him by yourself, sure he helps along the way but if I really want to beat him I must always be one step ahead of him and I myself have to keep going no matter if I trip and fall.
But there is another factor in this. My sister. Ever since I went to high school I felt I had to set a bar for my sister. A bar that says come and try and surpass this in every way and to rise above it. Sure my parents help her, she gets better help then I got when I was 8. My parents know how to work with her while they were just completely frustrated with teaching me. So she has to have the want to reach that bar. I'm not saying right now but when she is in high school I hope that she can surpass me and I will find ways to surpass her.
At this time if I was 8, and compared to her. I am LIGHT YEARS BEHIND.
So how does this tie back into a-team?? One reason if we ever want to make it to nats or even beat c-team then we have to push ourselves to the highest point possible and have the will to do it.
So how does this go back to your sadness. Because I realized that we had that "we wil we will rock you spirit" but we didn't have that "my opponent is the toughest one I'm going to meet" mind set thus we were completly annihalted, but its going to be different after our loss the whole teams mind set has changed its now "we've lost but we aren't going to lose again"
We have the confidence to win. We just need to act like our opponents are nothing but the best.
American thinking" There is always someone that is going to be better then you." - our thinking(somewhat) at spartanburg
My thinking now" I'M going to be the best"-Our a-team thinking now.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
just one of my favorite song lyrics
How the hell'd we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late
Nothin's wrongjust as long asyou know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right nowI know you're wondering when
Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)[Solo]
How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right nowI know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it allright but not right now
\I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late
Nothin's wrongjust as long asyou know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right nowI know you're wondering when
Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)[Solo]
How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right nowI know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it allright but not right now
\I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
One more time...........
Yes I know I've written a lot of blogs but I promise this is the last one.
This one is my concern of the greatest things in life yet so simple.
Your family.
Your family is the greates gift life has offered to you. Have you ever travelled to another country where your relatives live? I have.
When visiting China last summer I never really took to notice everybody maybe it was because of my so called *raging homorones* but I never really thought about it.
Until one day, my dad was talking to my sister.
"Are you having fun?"
"Somewhat...."
"Isn't it intresting how you live in what seems like two invisible worlds but you still have a connection?"
The conversation stopped there since my sister would not answer to such a silly question. But I did and it took 3 months for me to figure out something. Family is the greatest thing in life. No matter how far they are when you visit them you just have this special connection. They're special connection seems to be magically there. No matter how hard you try and break it you cant. But why? don't you want this feeling to be loved to have that special connection with someone. I do but I never felt it was it just because my heart was so closed or was that connection lost? I don't want to lose that feeling of being around loved ones.
This brings me to my second point of why I'm writing this. Ever since school has started love has been in the air. But I haven't felt a thing is it because my heart is so closed up? I have seen lovers go by but my heart seems to be locked up for no one to see was it because I was hurt? I want someone to love, someone I can talk to when the day is bad, someone I can hold in my arms and say the simple words
"I LOVE YOU"
But, in high school love is so changing this isn't how I want it to be.
"When I fall in love, it will be forever."
I want someone that I can always hold on to someone to be there for me and someone just to say those little simple words that mean so much.
Those little words
Those little words.................................
This one is my concern of the greatest things in life yet so simple.
Your family.
Your family is the greates gift life has offered to you. Have you ever travelled to another country where your relatives live? I have.
When visiting China last summer I never really took to notice everybody maybe it was because of my so called *raging homorones* but I never really thought about it.
Until one day, my dad was talking to my sister.
"Are you having fun?"
"Somewhat...."
"Isn't it intresting how you live in what seems like two invisible worlds but you still have a connection?"
The conversation stopped there since my sister would not answer to such a silly question. But I did and it took 3 months for me to figure out something. Family is the greatest thing in life. No matter how far they are when you visit them you just have this special connection. They're special connection seems to be magically there. No matter how hard you try and break it you cant. But why? don't you want this feeling to be loved to have that special connection with someone. I do but I never felt it was it just because my heart was so closed or was that connection lost? I don't want to lose that feeling of being around loved ones.
This brings me to my second point of why I'm writing this. Ever since school has started love has been in the air. But I haven't felt a thing is it because my heart is so closed up? I have seen lovers go by but my heart seems to be locked up for no one to see was it because I was hurt? I want someone to love, someone I can talk to when the day is bad, someone I can hold in my arms and say the simple words
"I LOVE YOU"
But, in high school love is so changing this isn't how I want it to be.
"When I fall in love, it will be forever."
I want someone that I can always hold on to someone to be there for me and someone just to say those little simple words that mean so much.
Those little words
Those little words.................................
"I love you."
I wait for you here, even if you don't know that I am
While being my old disapointed self, one of my friends looked at me in the eyes and asked
"Is she really better then me?"
Well wait it wasn't exact word for word but I got the point.
I answered with the simplest word my mind could think of.
"Relax"
RELAX!!!?? how can you tell someone to relax if they are worried about something. How can I say relax even when I myself worry about things.
The point is that worry and jealousy and fear and hatred and disappointment are all part of life.
Yes, we all strive to be the best and to be the one to get that trophy and smile at all the poor saps who didn't. But, one day someone will come along and win over you and he/she is the one laughing and smiling while you are here saddended and angry.
But why? Why is it that when we lose we seem to become disstressed? Why is it when we fall we fall so hard?
The answer is that we try so hard and pour our hearts into it. We give everything we've got and still we don't make it. This is what hurts us. That is way I had to answer the queston the way I did. Because I who give everything at the moment I have and still be the one who is looking at someone else smile and laugh it destroys me. But, that pain leads to determination. I will try harder and if I fall even harder and harder until I reach that goal. If it means to put everything else aside I will.
But is it really worth it? Is life really worth giving up for.........such a simple thing?
Life is a long, very long ,very long, time and to use that time to improve yourself is the greatest gift of life. But there is only one life and to use it to the max is the true gift of life.
So even if I get in front of you. I will still wait for you here until you reach me and I will stay here even if you don't know that I'M WAITING.
"Is she really better then me?"
Well wait it wasn't exact word for word but I got the point.
I answered with the simplest word my mind could think of.
"Relax"
RELAX!!!?? how can you tell someone to relax if they are worried about something. How can I say relax even when I myself worry about things.
The point is that worry and jealousy and fear and hatred and disappointment are all part of life.
Yes, we all strive to be the best and to be the one to get that trophy and smile at all the poor saps who didn't. But, one day someone will come along and win over you and he/she is the one laughing and smiling while you are here saddended and angry.
But why? Why is it that when we lose we seem to become disstressed? Why is it when we fall we fall so hard?
The answer is that we try so hard and pour our hearts into it. We give everything we've got and still we don't make it. This is what hurts us. That is way I had to answer the queston the way I did. Because I who give everything at the moment I have and still be the one who is looking at someone else smile and laugh it destroys me. But, that pain leads to determination. I will try harder and if I fall even harder and harder until I reach that goal. If it means to put everything else aside I will.
But is it really worth it? Is life really worth giving up for.........such a simple thing?
Life is a long, very long ,very long, time and to use that time to improve yourself is the greatest gift of life. But there is only one life and to use it to the max is the true gift of life.
So even if I get in front of you. I will still wait for you here until you reach me and I will stay here even if you don't know that I'M WAITING.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Bob jones
For all of us who went to Bob Jones we knew what we were getting ourselves into.
We've already heard that it was the hardest tournament we are going to face and that was true.
Yet we prevailed and survived. But, some of us dreams that have been broken. So what happened?
Don't you find it ironic that one small thing in life can turn everything over. and that one turn destorys our hopes.
The point is that even we our knocked down we have to get right back up remember the quote
"The harder I fall,the faster I get up"
We have to accept the past and move on no matter how painfull
"No pain,No gain"
But even if we must move on that little hole torn into our very soul will stay there for a very long time.
We've already heard that it was the hardest tournament we are going to face and that was true.
Yet we prevailed and survived. But, some of us dreams that have been broken. So what happened?
Don't you find it ironic that one small thing in life can turn everything over. and that one turn destorys our hopes.
The point is that even we our knocked down we have to get right back up remember the quote
"The harder I fall,the faster I get up"
We have to accept the past and move on no matter how painfull
"No pain,No gain"
But even if we must move on that little hole torn into our very soul will stay there for a very long time.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Failure of a Success
As all foresnics people know we did too very well at the tournament.
But isn't it funny how one match can screw you up and maybe others?
Here is what happened. Bryan Lu faced Amy Li of riverside. Unfotunatly Bryan lost and placed 6th making him 3-1.
Now let's see what happens if Bryan won( please note I'm not attacking or angry at you buddy! =D) Bryan would have been 4-0 automatically putting him in the top 3.
If this happened then the most likely possibility would me placing 6th. Unfortunatly I didn't cus I had fewer speaker points then Bryan.
But isn't it funny? How fate seems to play games with you.
"Failure is always the first step to sucess"-Cyrus yang
But isn't it funny how one match can screw you up and maybe others?
Here is what happened. Bryan Lu faced Amy Li of riverside. Unfotunatly Bryan lost and placed 6th making him 3-1.
Now let's see what happens if Bryan won( please note I'm not attacking or angry at you buddy! =D) Bryan would have been 4-0 automatically putting him in the top 3.
If this happened then the most likely possibility would me placing 6th. Unfortunatly I didn't cus I had fewer speaker points then Bryan.
But isn't it funny? How fate seems to play games with you.
"Failure is always the first step to sucess"-Cyrus yang
Friday, October 3, 2008
Wait running out of time??!!
With homework and schoolwork and forensics and a-team and tournaments and reading and mr.p's every once in a while outbursts of complete anger or funniness. Life seems to have speed right past me and I'm here watching my life go by. Is it just me? I know I'm still a freshman and I've got a long way to go but the ironic thing is................I kind of like it.
Hm.........maybe I'm just weird, but I'm always that type of person who needs things to do and if I don't have anything to do then well I ponder.
What I ponder is some of the following( you can tell I'm a natural philospher)
What is the true meaning of life?
Why am I here?
What is my purpose?
Why does one kid in my car pool even though we've been friends for 4 years still ironically his squeaky high pitched voice annoys the hell out of me.
Why am I me?
What if I wasn't me?
And you probbably can tell this goes on and on and on and on and on.....
So what are these answers to life's hardest questions?
SIMPLE
that's the answer simple.
what is the meaning of life, To live to breath to love to be loved to hope to dream and to achieve
Why am I here because it is your time to expericnce life
What is my puropse? Your purpose should be whatever you want it to be whatever makes you happy.
Um......yeah carpool there are just some people that get on your nerves even friends
Why am I me? Why not!! I mean you are special you are one of a kind you are you xD
What if I wasn't me......................this question hasn't pondered me for the longest time but I found it from a younger siblings point of view " So what" It doesn't matter if my name is cyrus or suryc I as a person is unique and that's all that matters
So for all of you out there trying to figure out the meaning of life stop look around you and say
"Life is too good to waste, its time to live it not learn it"
Hm.........maybe I'm just weird, but I'm always that type of person who needs things to do and if I don't have anything to do then well I ponder.
What I ponder is some of the following( you can tell I'm a natural philospher)
What is the true meaning of life?
Why am I here?
What is my purpose?
Why does one kid in my car pool even though we've been friends for 4 years still ironically his squeaky high pitched voice annoys the hell out of me.
Why am I me?
What if I wasn't me?
And you probbably can tell this goes on and on and on and on and on.....
So what are these answers to life's hardest questions?
SIMPLE
that's the answer simple.
what is the meaning of life, To live to breath to love to be loved to hope to dream and to achieve
Why am I here because it is your time to expericnce life
What is my puropse? Your purpose should be whatever you want it to be whatever makes you happy.
Um......yeah carpool there are just some people that get on your nerves even friends
Why am I me? Why not!! I mean you are special you are one of a kind you are you xD
What if I wasn't me......................this question hasn't pondered me for the longest time but I found it from a younger siblings point of view " So what" It doesn't matter if my name is cyrus or suryc I as a person is unique and that's all that matters
So for all of you out there trying to figure out the meaning of life stop look around you and say
"Life is too good to waste, its time to live it not learn it"
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