Yeah, so this past weekend was fun. Our team didn't do half bad but hey first tourney.
So why do I feel so down??
Hm.....Let's look at this in a family perspective.
Mom- had a severe sickness for 3 years and still graduated at 16. Had brains and didn't like to work, loves to argue.
Dad- Physical,logical form of a tiger, heart of gold. Dad wasn't the brightest but was a hard worker. Was bottom two in physics in high school/college by graduation time top 30 out of 300 some students. Solved things for himself with no one's help.
Hm......
So is that why? Is it because that I went in with high hopes only to be destroyed.
Well, its first tourney. So what!! Next time just try harder. Push yourself to the limits.(now I'm sounding like my dad........)
I've learned that I shouldn't take things seriously that is if I just want to have fun. If I want to win I have to play to win, push myself to the very limit of my knowledge and if it is not enough expand it.
"When you think about winning think that you can beat everyone, when you are studying and planning to beat everyone think that everyone is the most superior person in the world."
that's what I have to do, not the lack of confidence ,but to treat my enemy as a far superior person then I am. Until I can overwhelm him.
My dad once challenged me to beat him in every aspect. But he is the type of man who if you fall he just keeps going. Until you reach up to him by yourself, sure he helps along the way but if I really want to beat him I must always be one step ahead of him and I myself have to keep going no matter if I trip and fall.
But there is another factor in this. My sister. Ever since I went to high school I felt I had to set a bar for my sister. A bar that says come and try and surpass this in every way and to rise above it. Sure my parents help her, she gets better help then I got when I was 8. My parents know how to work with her while they were just completely frustrated with teaching me. So she has to have the want to reach that bar. I'm not saying right now but when she is in high school I hope that she can surpass me and I will find ways to surpass her.
At this time if I was 8, and compared to her. I am LIGHT YEARS BEHIND.
So how does this tie back into a-team?? One reason if we ever want to make it to nats or even beat c-team then we have to push ourselves to the highest point possible and have the will to do it.
So how does this go back to your sadness. Because I realized that we had that "we wil we will rock you spirit" but we didn't have that "my opponent is the toughest one I'm going to meet" mind set thus we were completly annihalted, but its going to be different after our loss the whole teams mind set has changed its now "we've lost but we aren't going to lose again"
We have the confidence to win. We just need to act like our opponents are nothing but the best.
American thinking" There is always someone that is going to be better then you." - our thinking(somewhat) at spartanburg
My thinking now" I'M going to be the best"-Our a-team thinking now.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
just one of my favorite song lyrics
How the hell'd we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late
Nothin's wrongjust as long asyou know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right nowI know you're wondering when
Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)[Solo]
How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right nowI know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it allright but not right now
\I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late
Nothin's wrongjust as long asyou know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right nowI know you're wondering when
Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right now
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)[Solo]
How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, some how gonna make it all right but not right nowI know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, some how gonna make it allright but not right now
\I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when(You're the only one who knows that)
I know you're wondering when
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
One more time...........
Yes I know I've written a lot of blogs but I promise this is the last one.
This one is my concern of the greatest things in life yet so simple.
Your family.
Your family is the greates gift life has offered to you. Have you ever travelled to another country where your relatives live? I have.
When visiting China last summer I never really took to notice everybody maybe it was because of my so called *raging homorones* but I never really thought about it.
Until one day, my dad was talking to my sister.
"Are you having fun?"
"Somewhat...."
"Isn't it intresting how you live in what seems like two invisible worlds but you still have a connection?"
The conversation stopped there since my sister would not answer to such a silly question. But I did and it took 3 months for me to figure out something. Family is the greatest thing in life. No matter how far they are when you visit them you just have this special connection. They're special connection seems to be magically there. No matter how hard you try and break it you cant. But why? don't you want this feeling to be loved to have that special connection with someone. I do but I never felt it was it just because my heart was so closed or was that connection lost? I don't want to lose that feeling of being around loved ones.
This brings me to my second point of why I'm writing this. Ever since school has started love has been in the air. But I haven't felt a thing is it because my heart is so closed up? I have seen lovers go by but my heart seems to be locked up for no one to see was it because I was hurt? I want someone to love, someone I can talk to when the day is bad, someone I can hold in my arms and say the simple words
"I LOVE YOU"
But, in high school love is so changing this isn't how I want it to be.
"When I fall in love, it will be forever."
I want someone that I can always hold on to someone to be there for me and someone just to say those little simple words that mean so much.
Those little words
Those little words.................................
This one is my concern of the greatest things in life yet so simple.
Your family.
Your family is the greates gift life has offered to you. Have you ever travelled to another country where your relatives live? I have.
When visiting China last summer I never really took to notice everybody maybe it was because of my so called *raging homorones* but I never really thought about it.
Until one day, my dad was talking to my sister.
"Are you having fun?"
"Somewhat...."
"Isn't it intresting how you live in what seems like two invisible worlds but you still have a connection?"
The conversation stopped there since my sister would not answer to such a silly question. But I did and it took 3 months for me to figure out something. Family is the greatest thing in life. No matter how far they are when you visit them you just have this special connection. They're special connection seems to be magically there. No matter how hard you try and break it you cant. But why? don't you want this feeling to be loved to have that special connection with someone. I do but I never felt it was it just because my heart was so closed or was that connection lost? I don't want to lose that feeling of being around loved ones.
This brings me to my second point of why I'm writing this. Ever since school has started love has been in the air. But I haven't felt a thing is it because my heart is so closed up? I have seen lovers go by but my heart seems to be locked up for no one to see was it because I was hurt? I want someone to love, someone I can talk to when the day is bad, someone I can hold in my arms and say the simple words
"I LOVE YOU"
But, in high school love is so changing this isn't how I want it to be.
"When I fall in love, it will be forever."
I want someone that I can always hold on to someone to be there for me and someone just to say those little simple words that mean so much.
Those little words
Those little words.................................
"I love you."
I wait for you here, even if you don't know that I am
While being my old disapointed self, one of my friends looked at me in the eyes and asked
"Is she really better then me?"
Well wait it wasn't exact word for word but I got the point.
I answered with the simplest word my mind could think of.
"Relax"
RELAX!!!?? how can you tell someone to relax if they are worried about something. How can I say relax even when I myself worry about things.
The point is that worry and jealousy and fear and hatred and disappointment are all part of life.
Yes, we all strive to be the best and to be the one to get that trophy and smile at all the poor saps who didn't. But, one day someone will come along and win over you and he/she is the one laughing and smiling while you are here saddended and angry.
But why? Why is it that when we lose we seem to become disstressed? Why is it when we fall we fall so hard?
The answer is that we try so hard and pour our hearts into it. We give everything we've got and still we don't make it. This is what hurts us. That is way I had to answer the queston the way I did. Because I who give everything at the moment I have and still be the one who is looking at someone else smile and laugh it destroys me. But, that pain leads to determination. I will try harder and if I fall even harder and harder until I reach that goal. If it means to put everything else aside I will.
But is it really worth it? Is life really worth giving up for.........such a simple thing?
Life is a long, very long ,very long, time and to use that time to improve yourself is the greatest gift of life. But there is only one life and to use it to the max is the true gift of life.
So even if I get in front of you. I will still wait for you here until you reach me and I will stay here even if you don't know that I'M WAITING.
"Is she really better then me?"
Well wait it wasn't exact word for word but I got the point.
I answered with the simplest word my mind could think of.
"Relax"
RELAX!!!?? how can you tell someone to relax if they are worried about something. How can I say relax even when I myself worry about things.
The point is that worry and jealousy and fear and hatred and disappointment are all part of life.
Yes, we all strive to be the best and to be the one to get that trophy and smile at all the poor saps who didn't. But, one day someone will come along and win over you and he/she is the one laughing and smiling while you are here saddended and angry.
But why? Why is it that when we lose we seem to become disstressed? Why is it when we fall we fall so hard?
The answer is that we try so hard and pour our hearts into it. We give everything we've got and still we don't make it. This is what hurts us. That is way I had to answer the queston the way I did. Because I who give everything at the moment I have and still be the one who is looking at someone else smile and laugh it destroys me. But, that pain leads to determination. I will try harder and if I fall even harder and harder until I reach that goal. If it means to put everything else aside I will.
But is it really worth it? Is life really worth giving up for.........such a simple thing?
Life is a long, very long ,very long, time and to use that time to improve yourself is the greatest gift of life. But there is only one life and to use it to the max is the true gift of life.
So even if I get in front of you. I will still wait for you here until you reach me and I will stay here even if you don't know that I'M WAITING.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Bob jones
For all of us who went to Bob Jones we knew what we were getting ourselves into.
We've already heard that it was the hardest tournament we are going to face and that was true.
Yet we prevailed and survived. But, some of us dreams that have been broken. So what happened?
Don't you find it ironic that one small thing in life can turn everything over. and that one turn destorys our hopes.
The point is that even we our knocked down we have to get right back up remember the quote
"The harder I fall,the faster I get up"
We have to accept the past and move on no matter how painfull
"No pain,No gain"
But even if we must move on that little hole torn into our very soul will stay there for a very long time.
We've already heard that it was the hardest tournament we are going to face and that was true.
Yet we prevailed and survived. But, some of us dreams that have been broken. So what happened?
Don't you find it ironic that one small thing in life can turn everything over. and that one turn destorys our hopes.
The point is that even we our knocked down we have to get right back up remember the quote
"The harder I fall,the faster I get up"
We have to accept the past and move on no matter how painfull
"No pain,No gain"
But even if we must move on that little hole torn into our very soul will stay there for a very long time.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Failure of a Success
As all foresnics people know we did too very well at the tournament.
But isn't it funny how one match can screw you up and maybe others?
Here is what happened. Bryan Lu faced Amy Li of riverside. Unfotunatly Bryan lost and placed 6th making him 3-1.
Now let's see what happens if Bryan won( please note I'm not attacking or angry at you buddy! =D) Bryan would have been 4-0 automatically putting him in the top 3.
If this happened then the most likely possibility would me placing 6th. Unfortunatly I didn't cus I had fewer speaker points then Bryan.
But isn't it funny? How fate seems to play games with you.
"Failure is always the first step to sucess"-Cyrus yang
But isn't it funny how one match can screw you up and maybe others?
Here is what happened. Bryan Lu faced Amy Li of riverside. Unfotunatly Bryan lost and placed 6th making him 3-1.
Now let's see what happens if Bryan won( please note I'm not attacking or angry at you buddy! =D) Bryan would have been 4-0 automatically putting him in the top 3.
If this happened then the most likely possibility would me placing 6th. Unfortunatly I didn't cus I had fewer speaker points then Bryan.
But isn't it funny? How fate seems to play games with you.
"Failure is always the first step to sucess"-Cyrus yang
Friday, October 3, 2008
Wait running out of time??!!
With homework and schoolwork and forensics and a-team and tournaments and reading and mr.p's every once in a while outbursts of complete anger or funniness. Life seems to have speed right past me and I'm here watching my life go by. Is it just me? I know I'm still a freshman and I've got a long way to go but the ironic thing is................I kind of like it.
Hm.........maybe I'm just weird, but I'm always that type of person who needs things to do and if I don't have anything to do then well I ponder.
What I ponder is some of the following( you can tell I'm a natural philospher)
What is the true meaning of life?
Why am I here?
What is my purpose?
Why does one kid in my car pool even though we've been friends for 4 years still ironically his squeaky high pitched voice annoys the hell out of me.
Why am I me?
What if I wasn't me?
And you probbably can tell this goes on and on and on and on and on.....
So what are these answers to life's hardest questions?
SIMPLE
that's the answer simple.
what is the meaning of life, To live to breath to love to be loved to hope to dream and to achieve
Why am I here because it is your time to expericnce life
What is my puropse? Your purpose should be whatever you want it to be whatever makes you happy.
Um......yeah carpool there are just some people that get on your nerves even friends
Why am I me? Why not!! I mean you are special you are one of a kind you are you xD
What if I wasn't me......................this question hasn't pondered me for the longest time but I found it from a younger siblings point of view " So what" It doesn't matter if my name is cyrus or suryc I as a person is unique and that's all that matters
So for all of you out there trying to figure out the meaning of life stop look around you and say
"Life is too good to waste, its time to live it not learn it"
Hm.........maybe I'm just weird, but I'm always that type of person who needs things to do and if I don't have anything to do then well I ponder.
What I ponder is some of the following( you can tell I'm a natural philospher)
What is the true meaning of life?
Why am I here?
What is my purpose?
Why does one kid in my car pool even though we've been friends for 4 years still ironically his squeaky high pitched voice annoys the hell out of me.
Why am I me?
What if I wasn't me?
And you probbably can tell this goes on and on and on and on and on.....
So what are these answers to life's hardest questions?
SIMPLE
that's the answer simple.
what is the meaning of life, To live to breath to love to be loved to hope to dream and to achieve
Why am I here because it is your time to expericnce life
What is my puropse? Your purpose should be whatever you want it to be whatever makes you happy.
Um......yeah carpool there are just some people that get on your nerves even friends
Why am I me? Why not!! I mean you are special you are one of a kind you are you xD
What if I wasn't me......................this question hasn't pondered me for the longest time but I found it from a younger siblings point of view " So what" It doesn't matter if my name is cyrus or suryc I as a person is unique and that's all that matters
So for all of you out there trying to figure out the meaning of life stop look around you and say
"Life is too good to waste, its time to live it not learn it"
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