This one is my concern of the greatest things in life yet so simple.
Your family.
Your family is the greates gift life has offered to you. Have you ever travelled to another country where your relatives live? I have.
When visiting China last summer I never really took to notice everybody maybe it was because of my so called *raging homorones* but I never really thought about it.
Until one day, my dad was talking to my sister.
"Are you having fun?"
"Somewhat...."
"Isn't it intresting how you live in what seems like two invisible worlds but you still have a connection?"
The conversation stopped there since my sister would not answer to such a silly question. But I did and it took 3 months for me to figure out something. Family is the greatest thing in life. No matter how far they are when you visit them you just have this special connection. They're special connection seems to be magically there. No matter how hard you try and break it you cant. But why? don't you want this feeling to be loved to have that special connection with someone. I do but I never felt it was it just because my heart was so closed or was that connection lost? I don't want to lose that feeling of being around loved ones.
This brings me to my second point of why I'm writing this. Ever since school has started love has been in the air. But I haven't felt a thing is it because my heart is so closed up? I have seen lovers go by but my heart seems to be locked up for no one to see was it because I was hurt? I want someone to love, someone I can talk to when the day is bad, someone I can hold in my arms and say the simple words
"I LOVE YOU"
But, in high school love is so changing this isn't how I want it to be.
"When I fall in love, it will be forever."
I want someone that I can always hold on to someone to be there for me and someone just to say those little simple words that mean so much.
Those little words
Those little words.................................
"I love you."
5 comments:
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO.
Love = when there've been a combined four heart attacks between the two of you and you have to remind him to take his high cholesterol controlling pills every morning.
Love [does not equal] random declarations in 3rd period and awkwardly holding hands during lunch and going out on a date except with all your friends and all her friends and then crying yourself to sleep because some other guy wrote on her Facebook wall...
This crap about freshmen falling in love? BULLSHIT. It's hormones. It's idiocy. I guarantee, if you "fall in love" right now, you will not remember the girl's name in 40 years, when you are truly happily married.
That feeling you're worried about, not having someone to lie in your arms? Yeah, they're called FRIENDS, and it's called HUGGING. You're definitely not lacking ANYTHING. For seriously.
And just to make sure you get the point:
IF YOU HAVE SEX YOU, CYRUS YANG, WILL GET PREGNANT AND HAVE BABIES AND DIE.
[the end.]
Family is important, little Cyrus. It really is.
Love for family is very important.
Love for friends is very important.
Love for yourself is very important.
But falling in love with a freshman this early in the year?
It's either peer pressure, puberty problems, or a combination of both.
By the way, Carrie, you will remember that girl (or guy's) name 40 years from now. =P First love, first love.
Utada Hikaruuuu.
But yeah, Cyrus, worry about your life now. Love will come to you.
>.>.
I'm going to have to completely agree with Carrie. Love is like a word with a magnitude multiple times greater than whatever is going on with the freshmen. Or in high school. Or most likely college. Mm. You can use the word 'like' or 'crush' or whatever you wanna call it, but frankly it's a hormonal unbalance or something.
Just have fun right now. Go hang out with your buddies. Focus on school. LD. A-team. Whatever else. Go get a hug from your female friends or Tim if you roll that way >.>. Love won't come round for a long while. It's quite normal. Don't feel left out.
AYE, NOW. Unless someone had decided to hack Blogger and delete every single blog it ever hosted, then you shall never stop writing, ya heard?! :P
You're right - love is in the air. It's everywhere; everyone's sharing and enjoying it. It's not the kind of love you wrote about in this entry, though; but it is the kind that's never ending, and it'll never disappear. And that kind of love comes from me, Beejal, Tim, Akshay, and all the other friends you have. It's okay to want to have someone like that, but the thing is, the more you want and think about it, the farther away it will be.
So just relax! Fall in love with school; fall in love with ateam; fall in love with Forensics! [I know I did :P] There are plenty of fish in the sea – and Southside, or just high school, is only a small pond. If you want someone to hold in your arms, all your gal-pals are here for ya. And we all love you, Cy-Cy :)
So many comments! I think I'll succumb to peer pressure and comment as well. :)
Cyrus, the last thing you want to worry about is having a crush. It just makes life complicated and creates more stress in your life. It's not worth it, trust me.
Like Carrie said, love != the petty relationships that freshies have that last a week.
You're still a kid, Cyrus. We all are. You'll have plenty of time to find that love when you're older. For now, concentrate on the goals you've set for yourself for these next four years. Enjoy freshman year while it lasts because when junior year comes, you'll get the pleasure of falling asleep with your face planted in a textbook every night.
Also, you're very mature to realize how important family is, especially at an age where it becomes a daily thing to verbally joust with your parents. :)
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