Dear 2008,
Its been nice knowing you. Too bad you have to leave so early. Oh well, you've brought some good things to me. Shall we start?
SCHOOL:
I have to say that this year been pretty flat out awesome. You've brought me awesome new friends and allowed me to keep old ones. I definitely have become a more open person and matured immensely during these years. I started joining clubs such as academic team and forensics and have enjoyed them and profited them greatly. I have an amazing group of friends at Southside and I'm glad I came to it. However, even though I came to Southside doesn't necessarily mean I didn't lose anything. I somewhat feel sad because I lost good friends from middle school, but I guess its just time to move on. Also I have lost some time with the family. Ever since High school I'm usually not home till 5 and then off to do homework and on Saturday's I'm off to tournaments. But I'm glad that my parents and my little sister understand and still support me after how much of a burden I've been to them. I also would like to thank my friends who've upheld me since the beginning of this year so thank guys. However, there is more to be done I need to improve myself academically again. I need to push all my grades up to the next level．Ｉ”ｍ ｎｏｔ ｓａｙｉｎｇ ｔｈａｔ ｍｙ ｇｒａｄｅｓ ａｒｅ ｂａｄ ｏｎ ｔｈｅ ｃｏｎｔｒａｒｙ Ｉ ｈａｖｅ ａｌｌ Ａ’ｓ ａｎｄ ｏｎｅ Ｂ ａｎｄ ｔｈａｔ ｉｓ ａ ９２ ｉｎ ＡＰＷＨ． ｂｕｔ ｔｈｅｒｅ ｉｓ ａｌｗａｙｓ ｒｏｏｍ ｆｏｒ ｉｍｐｒｏｖｅｍｅｎｔ． Ｔｈａｔ’ｓ ａ ｒｅｓｏｌｕｔｉｏｎ ｔｏ ｓｔａｒｔ ｂｕｒｎｉｎｇ ｔｈｅ ｆｌａｍｅｓ ｏｆ ｄｅｓｉｒｅ ｏｎｃｅ ａｇａｉｎ．
Ｐｅｒｓｏｎａｌ ｌｉｆｅ：
Ｉ ｃｏｕｌｄ ｎｏｔ ｂｅ ｈａｐｐｉｅｒ ｔｈｅｎ Ｉ”ｍ ｎｏｗ． Ｉhave awesome friends, a sweetheart, and support system to keep my feet from touching the ground. I would like to thank everyone in my life once again. But as usual there is always room for improvement I guess I put to much weight on other people shoulders because I'm to lazy to carry it myself. So that is another resolution to light the flames of self responsibility and lessen the weights of my burden on others. So Mom thanks for pushing me to things I didn't want to do. You understand me better then I do myself. And if it wasn't for you I would not have become the man I am today. Also, my friend who talked to me about vale. thanks for opening my mind and showing me that there is a brighter future even if you don't reach a goal. So Thank you for opening up my mind and seeing the light of the flame. Resolution: To burn away my burdens on others and carry them on myself.
Overview:
Life's been pretty great even though the economy is falling and the war still continuing its been pretty nice. Yet, as natural humans we question the darkness of the new year, we question if everything will be alright. And I say "How do you know the depths of the ocean if you have never left sight of the shore?" The only way to figure out is to go through it with out any hesitation, hey we questioned this year but it wasn't that bad was it? So let us rise our glasses for this final night of the year 2008 and move on through 2009's darkness without hesitation.
So here I stand writing on the final hours of 2008 and I have to say its been a good year. But each year has room for improvement. So I hope you guys will always try to improve yourself, because I will. I want to become a strong person who people can follow without questioning about their own concerns. So to my former self "Cheers! and may the flame burn stronger as the Gale forces that blow against it!"
New years resolutions:
"To light the Fire of Desire once again."
"To burn the burdens on others and carry the ash myself."
"To burn stronger as the Gale winds blow"
"To take my fire and shine it through the darkness."
I HOPE ALL OF YOU HAD A WONDERFUL 2008 YEAR AND A FLAME BRIGHT 2009!!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
I'm the light that guides those who do not see and new years resolution
*This is not a true account but rather what went through my mind and latter on this is a rant*
I asked a kid what he wants for Christmas. He said"I want my dad to come back home.". I said "from a trip?". He said "yeah". I asked "where?". He said "Iraq". Then time stopped at the moment. I looked him in the eyes and a tear rolled down my face. I said "Everything will be alright kid" and shook his hair. He smiled at me. I asked "Is that all?" He replied "yes.".
This war has gone to long and has torn family members apart. But to give hope to a kid to keep going forward is the greatest gift you can give. They say that Christmas is the season for giving and to give kids hope,dreams,strength and courage that is the true gifts you can give. But as the kid left I thought that my gift was unreasonable I had more then just promised the kid to hope but I have promised him God's greatest gift of all LIFE. How can I promise a kid the life of his father? I can't but to let the kid hope and dream and move forward that is the gift I have given him. Now I sit here typing my thoughts and I think that Life is the greatest gift God has given. You only have one chance and one life and you better make the best of it. So for all of you who sit at home and sigh about how life isn't going your way. Think about how that you are still alive and healthy and not in someone's shoes like that kid. Pray to God that you are fortunate with what you have and that God has determined that it is not your time to leave. Be happy that you still hold God's greatest gift of LIFE. While, that kid walks away I know I removed all fear,all doubts from his mind and that he is at peace.
I almost cried when I heard this: "Today 3 American Troops died on this Christmas Eve let's honor them in Silence" That is Three kids whose gifts I failed to give and three families whose Christmas has become Hell. When will this stop?
AP 4,218 American Soldiers have died since the beggining of this war. 4,218 kids whose Gifts they did not get. 4,218 families whose Christmas turned into Hell.
We cannot pretend that there are families that are suffering mental,economically and physically. We cannot pretned that those 4,218 soldiers are only snowman or this is a dream. WE CANNOT pretend that 4218 KIDS lost their brother or father. WHEN WILL THIS END!? Do you see the Fault of your mistake Bush??? Do you??? NO because you have taken God's most precious gift from 4218 people their Gift to Life. Yes they did volunteer, yes they were willing to give up their lives for their country! But you promised that this would end! Look at where we are now! More then 4 Years have passed! You gave us NOTHING BUT FEAR AND PAIN!
That is My New Years Resolve, to Eliminate Pain and fear. I will be the one to lift those who cannot stand. Carry those who cannot carry themselves. Guide those who cannot see. and Lead those who cannot lead themselves.
I am the Light that shall guide my friends and family out of the darkness and anyone else who neds it.
I asked a kid what he wants for Christmas. He said"I want my dad to come back home.". I said "from a trip?". He said "yeah". I asked "where?". He said "Iraq". Then time stopped at the moment. I looked him in the eyes and a tear rolled down my face. I said "Everything will be alright kid" and shook his hair. He smiled at me. I asked "Is that all?" He replied "yes.".
This war has gone to long and has torn family members apart. But to give hope to a kid to keep going forward is the greatest gift you can give. They say that Christmas is the season for giving and to give kids hope,dreams,strength and courage that is the true gifts you can give. But as the kid left I thought that my gift was unreasonable I had more then just promised the kid to hope but I have promised him God's greatest gift of all LIFE. How can I promise a kid the life of his father? I can't but to let the kid hope and dream and move forward that is the gift I have given him. Now I sit here typing my thoughts and I think that Life is the greatest gift God has given. You only have one chance and one life and you better make the best of it. So for all of you who sit at home and sigh about how life isn't going your way. Think about how that you are still alive and healthy and not in someone's shoes like that kid. Pray to God that you are fortunate with what you have and that God has determined that it is not your time to leave. Be happy that you still hold God's greatest gift of LIFE. While, that kid walks away I know I removed all fear,all doubts from his mind and that he is at peace.
I almost cried when I heard this: "Today 3 American Troops died on this Christmas Eve let's honor them in Silence" That is Three kids whose gifts I failed to give and three families whose Christmas has become Hell. When will this stop?
AP 4,218 American Soldiers have died since the beggining of this war. 4,218 kids whose Gifts they did not get. 4,218 families whose Christmas turned into Hell.
We cannot pretend that there are families that are suffering mental,economically and physically. We cannot pretned that those 4,218 soldiers are only snowman or this is a dream. WE CANNOT pretend that 4218 KIDS lost their brother or father. WHEN WILL THIS END!? Do you see the Fault of your mistake Bush??? Do you??? NO because you have taken God's most precious gift from 4218 people their Gift to Life. Yes they did volunteer, yes they were willing to give up their lives for their country! But you promised that this would end! Look at where we are now! More then 4 Years have passed! You gave us NOTHING BUT FEAR AND PAIN!
That is My New Years Resolve, to Eliminate Pain and fear. I will be the one to lift those who cannot stand. Carry those who cannot carry themselves. Guide those who cannot see. and Lead those who cannot lead themselves.
I am the Light that shall guide my friends and family out of the darkness and anyone else who neds it.
Monday, December 22, 2008
To be thankful
Good bye 2008,hello 2009
Dear 2008,
You have brought both good things as well as bad. So I guess this will be a overview of the year. Shall we start?
Good things, I have found love, found great friends, and a great reason to life. I have been happy this year with all the success and new experiences 2008 has been a learning,maturing experience. So basically I'm here to write every aspect on human happiness. There is no doubt that this year for me personally. But with each new year, a man must evolve or he won't make it to see the next. So even ithough Im writting about a good year, I am also writing my new years resolution. 1) Be generally a happier person,2) To expand and push my limits, 3)To find my weakness and overcome it,4) to be at peace with the world and myself. That is my resolve. To become a better person,to mature,to grow,to experience,to learn.
Bad things
US economy is falling and there is no stop to it. I fear that my future is unclear. Not only that but the so called "war on terrorism"is an epic fail, Bush has failed his 2nd term in so called protecting "the American dream". This year has seen some frightening moments, terrorist attacks, constant falling of the stock market worldwide, but yet the Christmas spirit prevails-people love each other and care for others that's what makes Christmas so special as well as the new year. But this year has also been personally failure, I haven't found my place in this world, I haven't achieved my life goal or success. What have I achieved? I have achieved love,friendship,happiness,maturity,responsibility,patience,hard working,persistence, and insight. These are the greatest gifts of humanity. That is what I've achieved.
I have achieved a lot this year of 2008, and I have a lot to improve. But this week its time to focus on the real spirit of the Christmas and the New Year. Its time to give,love,think,share and improve.
My resolve
"A new year, a new slate, a new goal, A new way to Improve"
Dear 2008,
You have brought both good things as well as bad. So I guess this will be a overview of the year. Shall we start?
Good things, I have found love, found great friends, and a great reason to life. I have been happy this year with all the success and new experiences 2008 has been a learning,maturing experience. So basically I'm here to write every aspect on human happiness. There is no doubt that this year for me personally. But with each new year, a man must evolve or he won't make it to see the next. So even ithough Im writting about a good year, I am also writing my new years resolution. 1) Be generally a happier person,2) To expand and push my limits, 3)To find my weakness and overcome it,4) to be at peace with the world and myself. That is my resolve. To become a better person,to mature,to grow,to experience,to learn.
Bad things
US economy is falling and there is no stop to it. I fear that my future is unclear. Not only that but the so called "war on terrorism"is an epic fail, Bush has failed his 2nd term in so called protecting "the American dream". This year has seen some frightening moments, terrorist attacks, constant falling of the stock market worldwide, but yet the Christmas spirit prevails-people love each other and care for others that's what makes Christmas so special as well as the new year. But this year has also been personally failure, I haven't found my place in this world, I haven't achieved my life goal or success. What have I achieved? I have achieved love,friendship,happiness,maturity,responsibility,patience,hard working,persistence, and insight. These are the greatest gifts of humanity. That is what I've achieved.
I have achieved a lot this year of 2008, and I have a lot to improve. But this week its time to focus on the real spirit of the Christmas and the New Year. Its time to give,love,think,share and improve.
My resolve
"A new year, a new slate, a new goal, A new way to Improve"
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Light in the Dark
dear, you know who.
I am terribly sorry to stay this anonymous with you. However, I am being watched over. But no matter I would like to say Congrats.
December 13, 2008
Happiest day of my life. I was content with my former life. But something was missing. Something greatly was missing. I tried to search for it...I tried so hard to look for something that could fill the hole. But nothing seemed to work. In 8th grade I though I had found the solution, but I was wrong. Nothing happened that hole didn't clog up that hole just got bigger and deeper. I felt it also, I couldn't enjoy Life like I was able to. Something had been taken from me and a Black pit of darkness left in its place.
Then you came... little did I know that you would be the one. The one to get me out of the dark into the light. You came to me as a friend but one thing led to another. Finnaly I fet what i was missing Happiness finnaly after all these years what true happiness is. My soul searched desperatly to find and I finnaly found it in your eyes, your hopes, your dreams. I've learned to make my own. I thought I was losing life,losing hope and God told me to be strong and you will be rewarded. I listened to him and became strong and kept on fighting. Then you came and I finnaly was able to close my eyes..........and watch the moon differently tonight.
You have been my light in the time of Darkness.
Love, Cyrus yang
I am terribly sorry to stay this anonymous with you. However, I am being watched over. But no matter I would like to say Congrats.
December 13, 2008
Happiest day of my life. I was content with my former life. But something was missing. Something greatly was missing. I tried to search for it...I tried so hard to look for something that could fill the hole. But nothing seemed to work. In 8th grade I though I had found the solution, but I was wrong. Nothing happened that hole didn't clog up that hole just got bigger and deeper. I felt it also, I couldn't enjoy Life like I was able to. Something had been taken from me and a Black pit of darkness left in its place.
Then you came... little did I know that you would be the one. The one to get me out of the dark into the light. You came to me as a friend but one thing led to another. Finnaly I fet what i was missing Happiness finnaly after all these years what true happiness is. My soul searched desperatly to find and I finnaly found it in your eyes, your hopes, your dreams. I've learned to make my own. I thought I was losing life,losing hope and God told me to be strong and you will be rewarded. I listened to him and became strong and kept on fighting. Then you came and I finnaly was able to close my eyes..........and watch the moon differently tonight.
You have been my light in the time of Darkness.
Love, Cyrus yang
Friday, December 5, 2008
YOU MADE ME WAIT FOR WHAT!(yes this is a rant)
WARNING rant coming ahead.
So anyways during this weekend its been pretty boring since most of my close friends have gone to YIG and won't be back until Saturday aafternoon. So everyday carpool is pretty much boring and yes..silent. So I will be extremely happy when the YIG people come home and things go back to normal.
However, I did not write this blog to talk about YIG. It so happens that on Thursday the 4th of December year 2008. I receive a phone call at 7:50 and it just happens to be the indian kid.
"hello?"-me
"Yeah Cyrus its me __ we might be late going to your house today fine with you?"Indian
"um.....how long?"-me
"10 minutes"- Indian
Seeing that there was no harm in this i said
"yeah that's fine but why?"
"Oh..you don't need to know that."-Indian
Hangs up the phone and the end of the conversation. So I decide to wait for 10 minutes and he should arrive soon. 15 minutes latter hm.......no problem right? 20 minutes ok this is getting ridiculous. I look at the time and its what!? 8:15 25minutes have passed since he called. I wait at 8:20 I get picked up and the Indian kid's mom apologizes and I say its fine thinking that it was just some errand. Luckily our third person was sick and the other(very good friend of mine) was on YIG. So we start for the highway by that time its 8:23 and I say to myself there is no way we can make it. Guess what? I end up 5 minutes late to French 1 and decide to take a seat.
Latter that day the indian kid comes up to me and says why we were so late.
He says for Swiming pants. WAIT what?! I must have slept very little yesterday. Did you just say Pants? So what you made me late and yourself for a pair of pants!!!!
Do you see where I'm going with this? Then he says that it was his mom who was concerned so they drove to spartanburg and came back. FOR PANTS! I mean seriously if it had been like a bill you have to pay or your power gets cut off I can understand BUT FOR SOME $20 PIECE OF CLOTHING THAT IS USED FOR SPORTS TO CAUSE ME TO BE LATE IS,PARDON THE EXPRESSIONG BUT,STUPID and here is the worst part HE DIDN'T FIND THEM! My God kid do you know what your first priorties are? Pants are the least of your concern. Oh what's this you blame it on your mom. Yeah just like the time you looked like you were screaming at your pants. Come on kid think before you act. So I am so glad we had two missing people today or else one of my very good friends would be, pardon the expression once again, PISSED. Jeez.. kid and oh wait what that's right you told me at 9 o'clock yesterday at night that you had a orthodonist appointment tomorrow at 4. You could have looked for your pants then. Oh wait you go and make an excuse and say that the pool closes at 9 that is a bunch of, I apologize in advance for my vulgar language, BULLSHIT. Kid seriously learn how to use your brain before you act. I wouldn't be the only one yelling my face off on this too. My good friend would have wrote a blog about this as well. Ok I understand that you are not the brightest kid but use some common sense! Seriously good GOD I see why my friend ranted about you. Learn to organize what's important first and then think about the rest!
For all of you who read this blog to the end. Thank you...I just had to release my anger without physically hurting the kid. So kid if you someday by a miracle come and read this blog, remember the old saying "LOOK BEFORE YOU LEAP! THINK BEFORE YOU ACT!"
So anyways during this weekend its been pretty boring since most of my close friends have gone to YIG and won't be back until Saturday aafternoon. So everyday carpool is pretty much boring and yes..silent. So I will be extremely happy when the YIG people come home and things go back to normal.
However, I did not write this blog to talk about YIG. It so happens that on Thursday the 4th of December year 2008. I receive a phone call at 7:50 and it just happens to be the indian kid.
"hello?"-me
"Yeah Cyrus its me __ we might be late going to your house today fine with you?"Indian
"um.....how long?"-me
"10 minutes"- Indian
Seeing that there was no harm in this i said
"yeah that's fine but why?"
"Oh..you don't need to know that."-Indian
Hangs up the phone and the end of the conversation. So I decide to wait for 10 minutes and he should arrive soon. 15 minutes latter hm.......no problem right? 20 minutes ok this is getting ridiculous. I look at the time and its what!? 8:15 25minutes have passed since he called. I wait at 8:20 I get picked up and the Indian kid's mom apologizes and I say its fine thinking that it was just some errand. Luckily our third person was sick and the other(very good friend of mine) was on YIG. So we start for the highway by that time its 8:23 and I say to myself there is no way we can make it. Guess what? I end up 5 minutes late to French 1 and decide to take a seat.
Latter that day the indian kid comes up to me and says why we were so late.
He says for Swiming pants. WAIT what?! I must have slept very little yesterday. Did you just say Pants? So what you made me late and yourself for a pair of pants!!!!
Do you see where I'm going with this? Then he says that it was his mom who was concerned so they drove to spartanburg and came back. FOR PANTS! I mean seriously if it had been like a bill you have to pay or your power gets cut off I can understand BUT FOR SOME $20 PIECE OF CLOTHING THAT IS USED FOR SPORTS TO CAUSE ME TO BE LATE IS,PARDON THE EXPRESSIONG BUT,STUPID and here is the worst part HE DIDN'T FIND THEM! My God kid do you know what your first priorties are? Pants are the least of your concern. Oh what's this you blame it on your mom. Yeah just like the time you looked like you were screaming at your pants. Come on kid think before you act. So I am so glad we had two missing people today or else one of my very good friends would be, pardon the expression once again, PISSED. Jeez.. kid and oh wait what that's right you told me at 9 o'clock yesterday at night that you had a orthodonist appointment tomorrow at 4. You could have looked for your pants then. Oh wait you go and make an excuse and say that the pool closes at 9 that is a bunch of, I apologize in advance for my vulgar language, BULLSHIT. Kid seriously learn how to use your brain before you act. I wouldn't be the only one yelling my face off on this too. My good friend would have wrote a blog about this as well. Ok I understand that you are not the brightest kid but use some common sense! Seriously good GOD I see why my friend ranted about you. Learn to organize what's important first and then think about the rest!
For all of you who read this blog to the end. Thank you...I just had to release my anger without physically hurting the kid. So kid if you someday by a miracle come and read this blog, remember the old saying "LOOK BEFORE YOU LEAP! THINK BEFORE YOU ACT!"
Monday, December 1, 2008
Happiness is really in the small things isn't it?
Yeah I know we're in high school and there is a lot of pressure going on and that its like 4 hours of homework a night and going to bed at like 3 only to wake up at like 4 and realize that you forgot to research stuff for a project or read a chapter in your book. But let's face it isn't the small things make us happy.
How many of you got a smile today? If you count I bet a lot? But I bet you didn't think it very much did ya? Ok another question....how many of you were happy right after that smile? Did it just make your day? It defintly makes my days. Do you know that if you laugh one time a day it can actually increase your health? You might not believe it but hey when you laugh don't you feel alot better? Let's face it we can't help but catch this deadly disease......HAPPINESS.
But happiness can be such simple things such as a hello or how are you or a smile and a wave. People who need such things as money and riches don't know true happiness and its true. They are only concerned with what they want. To be happy you just have to make someone else happy. And guess what? It doesn't take much to make a person happy. Just say hello or how are you doing? Start a little bit of talk make the person smile and laugh. I will bet you that you will be happy as well!
So what are you waiting for? Happiness is just as easy as saying hello! And I promise you'll find yourself smiling too :)
How many of you got a smile today? If you count I bet a lot? But I bet you didn't think it very much did ya? Ok another question....how many of you were happy right after that smile? Did it just make your day? It defintly makes my days. Do you know that if you laugh one time a day it can actually increase your health? You might not believe it but hey when you laugh don't you feel alot better? Let's face it we can't help but catch this deadly disease......HAPPINESS.
But happiness can be such simple things such as a hello or how are you or a smile and a wave. People who need such things as money and riches don't know true happiness and its true. They are only concerned with what they want. To be happy you just have to make someone else happy. And guess what? It doesn't take much to make a person happy. Just say hello or how are you doing? Start a little bit of talk make the person smile and laugh. I will bet you that you will be happy as well!
So what are you waiting for? Happiness is just as easy as saying hello! And I promise you'll find yourself smiling too :)
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