wake me up when october ends.

Sometimes when I fall asleep, I'd like to pretend that some things are just nightmares, and I'll eventually wake up and everything will be ok.

We love you GFAN!

When I heard that Gary Fan was in the hospital my heart dropped. This is the person who has done so much for not only a huge number of people but also me.

This is the guy who

Became my first SHS friend
Help me find the joy in Forensics
Helped me on my feet after tournaments
Give endless amount of support and determination
Helps without wanting anything back
Wears a smile each and every day



WE MISS YOU GARY FAN AND WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU AND WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU NO MATTER WHERE YOU GO!!

"Everybody need some time away..."

Ok, for those of you who do know who I'm going to talk about that's nice, please don't comment(for the sake of keeping it low profile). Well you see it basically went down like this

asked her out afterschool on monday
Its thursday(I know I know, maybe I'm rushing things too quickly) but hey I'll have to learn to be patient, I'm giving her all the time she needs.

but if you've already said no, then please please please just say it to me, a hurt heart is better then a heart that's longing for something that can't be reached. Don't be afriad to hurt me..you'll help me so please if it doesn't work out just tell me.

On a brighter note, This week felt amazing, until today. Ugh I don't know, or is it just me that some days just plain suck? Its not like today i got bad news or anything but I just didn't feel in tune with everything else in the world.

Anyways, I'm still super happy and excited and it's all good. I just guess its just one of those days where i'm just tired.

overall status for today: extremelly happy :D

"When I look at her and the way she is always smiling, it reminds me of something I forgot a long time ago. That in everyday there's something worth being happy about"

It keeps us together.

Well well, looks like I couldn't give up on you blog...always seeming to come back to you.
First off, Carolina was AMAZING. When you realize that half the people on stage are from Southside. Your heart pounds harder. You yell louder. Your body is filled with energy. That is why I love forensics. Not because of the competition in the round, always trying to improve yourself. But because the amazing people on this team and the amazing moments we share.

Second reason I love Forensics, is because I've found someone new. Just when I thought I wouldn't. I refuse to lose her this time, I didn't take chances last year, but I will with her. I want to take this one step further.


WE ARE LEGEND.